Did I soothe my family with food so I could eat too?

This is a good question I am trying to answer today.  The cake on Friday night was all because I wanted it, not because my friends did.  I even rationalize my holidays thinking no one wants to eat how I eat so I have to cook for them not me.  I try to do both and stick to it, but who is going to eat clean when surrounded by all that stuff I can’t have?  And I brought it into the house!

I choose restaurants and meals sometimes solely for the other person’s needs knowing that it will allow me the excuse to cheat a little.  I’ve been known to tell people “choose any restaurant, I’ll be fine” simply because I want an excuse to cheat.  That’s a lot to admit here, but it is true.

Today is day two eating clean.  I feel like ASS. I’m tired, crabby, lethargic, my head is a constant dull ache and my system is doing it’s wig out thing it does when I eat clean.

Gluten is like a drug.  It makes me crave sugar, for one, but it also deadens me to how I really feel.  When I eat gluten it’s like I have this cushion around me and I am more able to bounce back from things that rub me the wrong way.  When I am off gluten, initially, all I want to do is get that cushion back.  It becomes all I can think about.  This time I am dropping processed grains, too, so there isn’t even the comfort of a gluten-free waffle or tortilla to comfort me.  This is going to be challenging. I know that once I get past the hard stage it will get easier.  I just have to get there.

• Breakfast:  Vega chocolate protein powder with unsweetened almond milk and peppermint extract (Thin Mint Shake)
• Lunch: Mixed greens with herbs, tomato, onion, and chili beans
• Dinner: Quinoa and Chick Pea casserole with tomatoes and green pepper, salad greens on the side
• Snack: Vega Smoothie

A couple more days of feeling like death and I will feel better.  At least I know that now.  The probiotics in the smoothie will help, too, and I am going to down a coconut water before dinner.  That will also help.